I have made a few decisions - one of which is to actually take some much needed vacation and do nothing except allow the Lord to speak to me. I have been in Rogers for 5 years and have yet to take a full vacation so I might try it this year. I spoke to my Church leaders and they are going to handle midweek services for the month of July and I will work only on Saturday and Sunday. It is a good compromise for me.
My best friend from college, Kim and her husband Phil are coming this weekend - I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!! She has not seen me this size! =-D
I am making a comercial on Wednesday for the new Northwest Arkansas Biggest Loser competition. You know the "If I can do it then you can too" comercial. It will be fun I think.
Had a great workout yesterday - usually I do a few exercises and then my trainer lets me rest a minute. Yesterday it was solid for about 45 minutes, boom, boom, boom, from one thing to another! It was exhausting but I always feel like I've really done something when it's hard like that. I am a bit strange now though - one of those reasons I am getting to know the new me - my likes and dislikes have changed so drastically!
A friend sent me a verse yesterday that really set my heart at ease - Micah 6:8
"He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercifully, and to walk humbly with your God?"
No more, no less. Amen & amen!
Love to all! Kari
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I Will Praise You In This Storm
I was sure by now, God
You would have reached down and wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say amen, that it's still raining
As thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you, and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on if I can't find You
And as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
To all my friends - no worries! I may be in the storm but I know who is the calmer of all storms and so I will praise Him yet! As Job said "Though He slay me yet will I trust in Him!"
Blessings! Kari
You would have reached down and wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say amen, that it's still raining
As thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you, and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on if I can't find You
And as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
To all my friends - no worries! I may be in the storm but I know who is the calmer of all storms and so I will praise Him yet! As Job said "Though He slay me yet will I trust in Him!"
Blessings! Kari
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I've lost 110!
By the way the weigh-in went well, down to 204 and lost 4 inches in my hips and 1 in my waist.
It's Only the World!
I am better - thank you to all my friends who have called, emailed etc.
I also am back into my workout routine so that at least is going well, my trainer is back working us hard - made us run out in the heat yesterday said we were gonna do a truck push or pull soon. I am not sure I am ready for that but if he says so I am then thats what I'll do - go figure!
I know my enemy has just been trying to kill my spirit with the cares of this world and emotions. But I will NOT let him rob me of my joy.
Still, pray for me friends. All the requests from my last blog. Blessings to all, Kari
I also am back into my workout routine so that at least is going well, my trainer is back working us hard - made us run out in the heat yesterday said we were gonna do a truck push or pull soon. I am not sure I am ready for that but if he says so I am then thats what I'll do - go figure!
I know my enemy has just been trying to kill my spirit with the cares of this world and emotions. But I will NOT let him rob me of my joy.
Still, pray for me friends. All the requests from my last blog. Blessings to all, Kari
Monday, June 18, 2007
From Bad to Worse
Sometimes this journey doesn't really seem worth it. So much has changed over the past 8 months! I look different, feel different I guess I even act different. I don't know me. I'll be honest, being fat has its advantages - it keeps you guarded and safe and right now I miss that feeling. Blast it all I need an excuse for whats going on in my life and the fat isn't there to blame it on anymore. I guess this is just a learning time for me. Solomon says it best:
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil?
10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.
13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
May He bless His Word to my heart.
I have a few prayer requests: 1-that I would find a new workout buddy be they male or female to workout with. 2-that I will get out of this funk that I am in. 3-that God would help me to recognize and fix all the flaws in my character that I might not offend others. 4-that he will help me with some trust issues I am having. 5-that an aquaintance of mine who is looking for a new job will find one soon so that they can quit worrying. 6-that a family that left my Church will see that they are loved and missed and will return soon. 7-that my weighin tomorrow won't be as bad as I'm expecting.
I've been listening to a song by Mandesa today called "It's Only the World" and it talks about days like today. It has been a comfort to me! It says, "Heaven is a place where every tear on every face will be wiped away." If you have had a rough day or week I highly recommend you look it up on the web and download it - a good couple of dollars spent.
I'm looking to make some changes in my life in the next couple of months that do not involve my looks so hopefully I will get consumed by these things and all the rest of the junk will take care of itself. I know I have offended some of you over the past several months with talking about my weightloss - it was never my intent, please forgive me. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions but I am here to tell you that the road to heaven is paved with good intentions gone awry! This journey that we are all on is just an educational trip and thank God, He grades on a curve - He alone judges our hearts!=-D
To all those that I know, I am praying for you especially those of you who are moving next Sunday (big Salvation Army move time). I love you all! And, to those I don't know email me and lets get aquainted. Kari
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil?
10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.
13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
May He bless His Word to my heart.
I have a few prayer requests: 1-that I would find a new workout buddy be they male or female to workout with. 2-that I will get out of this funk that I am in. 3-that God would help me to recognize and fix all the flaws in my character that I might not offend others. 4-that he will help me with some trust issues I am having. 5-that an aquaintance of mine who is looking for a new job will find one soon so that they can quit worrying. 6-that a family that left my Church will see that they are loved and missed and will return soon. 7-that my weighin tomorrow won't be as bad as I'm expecting.
I've been listening to a song by Mandesa today called "It's Only the World" and it talks about days like today. It has been a comfort to me! It says, "Heaven is a place where every tear on every face will be wiped away." If you have had a rough day or week I highly recommend you look it up on the web and download it - a good couple of dollars spent.
I'm looking to make some changes in my life in the next couple of months that do not involve my looks so hopefully I will get consumed by these things and all the rest of the junk will take care of itself. I know I have offended some of you over the past several months with talking about my weightloss - it was never my intent, please forgive me. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions but I am here to tell you that the road to heaven is paved with good intentions gone awry! This journey that we are all on is just an educational trip and thank God, He grades on a curve - He alone judges our hearts!=-D
To all those that I know, I am praying for you especially those of you who are moving next Sunday (big Salvation Army move time). I love you all! And, to those I don't know email me and lets get aquainted. Kari
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Misunderstood
This has been a really trying week for me. First my Doctor informs me that my goal to lose 42 more pounds in unrealistic and practically unatainable. On top of that I haven't been feeling really great - hate working out alone and all my workout buddies have quit or moved on. Then to make the week do a complete nose-dive I had some friends really misunderstand something I had done and I may have completely alienated them - it really broke my heart, I guess I had not let my guard down like that in a long time so when this came along the hurt really caught me off guard. I spent two days doing nothing much but sleeping - didn't help anything it just kept me from worrying about everything. My trainer is back tomorrow and hopefully things will go well at the gym this week. It is all I can hope for at this point! I do have weigh-in on Tuesday though so I am not too optimistic - I just pray I haven't gained too much!
I guess the real rub this week is I still don't really know the new me. Before if someone misunderstood me or didn't like me I could always say "it's because I'm fat." Now I feel like I have to own everything - they don't like me because well, maybe I'm not really likeable. I know these feelings are not from God my Father so I will just have to work on my emotions and getting into the gym and working out does relieve stress and make one less likely to be depressed. We'll see what the week holds.
Pray for me! I love you all! Kari
I guess the real rub this week is I still don't really know the new me. Before if someone misunderstood me or didn't like me I could always say "it's because I'm fat." Now I feel like I have to own everything - they don't like me because well, maybe I'm not really likeable. I know these feelings are not from God my Father so I will just have to work on my emotions and getting into the gym and working out does relieve stress and make one less likely to be depressed. We'll see what the week holds.
Pray for me! I love you all! Kari
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Blue's News
My trainer has been away for a week and a half. Part of the time I was in Atlanta so it was okay the rest well, lets just say I really miss my workouts! I've been working with another trainer but his just aren't hard enough so I don't feel like I've done as much.
I also went to the Doctor yesterday and he said he doesn't think I can lose 42 more pounds which is my goal. He said that I have at the least 20 pounds of excess skin so losing 42 would be like me losing 60 after the skin is removed and he doessn't think that is reasonable. He said I could always try and prove him wrong though. My trainer says we can try as well. Maybe settle for 30?
Of course I doubt I can afford to do much about the skin issue - plastic surgery is a bit out of my reach financially. God will provide if that is what God wants for me.
Pray for me friends - I've had a rough day! Love & blessings on you all.
I also went to the Doctor yesterday and he said he doesn't think I can lose 42 more pounds which is my goal. He said that I have at the least 20 pounds of excess skin so losing 42 would be like me losing 60 after the skin is removed and he doessn't think that is reasonable. He said I could always try and prove him wrong though. My trainer says we can try as well. Maybe settle for 30?
Of course I doubt I can afford to do much about the skin issue - plastic surgery is a bit out of my reach financially. God will provide if that is what God wants for me.
Pray for me friends - I've had a rough day! Love & blessings on you all.
Sunday, June 3, 2007
It's Me!
Hello everyone! I switched from xanga to a google blog because EVERYONE can access these wether you have an account or not.
My trainer left this morning for two weeks continuing education. I should be fine the first week but the second I will probably start having withdrawels. I NEED my workouts! I'm addicted!!!! At least part of it I will be in Atlanta - the 7th-the 11th so that will be some relief.
A friend from Russellville came to church this morning - he hadn't seen me since well, forever! He said I looked much better.
For those who are new to my blog I have lost over 100 pounds! No quick fixes, no fad diets and no SURGERY! Just changed the way and what I eat and hired an awesome personal trainer. It took me 6 months and 10 days to lose the first hundred but now its been about 6 more weeks and I've only lost about 8 more. Discouraging but I have had a LOT of miracles the past seven months so I shant be greedy. I've gone from a size 32 to a 14/16 and I can shop in normal stores now - no more fat lady stores for me!=-D
My trainer left this morning for two weeks continuing education. I should be fine the first week but the second I will probably start having withdrawels. I NEED my workouts! I'm addicted!!!! At least part of it I will be in Atlanta - the 7th-the 11th so that will be some relief.
A friend from Russellville came to church this morning - he hadn't seen me since well, forever! He said I looked much better.
For those who are new to my blog I have lost over 100 pounds! No quick fixes, no fad diets and no SURGERY! Just changed the way and what I eat and hired an awesome personal trainer. It took me 6 months and 10 days to lose the first hundred but now its been about 6 more weeks and I've only lost about 8 more. Discouraging but I have had a LOT of miracles the past seven months so I shant be greedy. I've gone from a size 32 to a 14/16 and I can shop in normal stores now - no more fat lady stores for me!=-D
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