Great Christmas! I got more than I wanted! Many surprises...Wii (the dogs go nuts when I do the boxing on it=-/)...Jewelry and purse from the Brighton store...cool necklace from my sister...a cool sweatshirt from Tim at the gym plus cool stuff from my friends at the gym as well...books to help me with my workouts.
We opened our gifts Christmas eve then on Christmas day we went to The Salvation Army Shelter for Christmas dinner and then took all our dogs to Bella Vista to walk around the lake. They had a blast and it was so neat to be able to actually RUN with them. They were so exhausted when we got back to the car that they slept all the way home! Then we went to see a movie (National Treasure : Book of Secrets). All in all it was a great day.
Another thing that made today good was that I was able to give a gift to help out an old friend. At church on Sunday the Pastor passed out envelopes with a $20.00 bill in it and told us to give it to someone we thought needed it. He was stressing the point that it is better to give than to receive - of course that is not a stretch for me. I am enjoying the church I am attending now even though I do miss the Army especially on Sunday mornings.
I pray that you all had wonderful Christmas celebrations of your own and that you found just what you wanted under the Christmas tree! Blessings to you all! Kari
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
Hooker Boots! LOL!
Wow - two weeks since I've posted - busy Christmas season! I thought I was taking a break from it all but talked my dad into doing kettles for Rogers and the ended up doing volunteer kettle running! UGH! but it is almost over and it hasn't been too bad.
I found a new Church to go to for a bit - I feel more comfortable there right now. No questions no expectations! It's great! I had been going to a women's Bible study there for a few weeks and decided to try out the worship service. I am enjoying sleeping in on Sunday and not being rushed and not having to be it on Sunday morning. Don't miss understand there are things I do miss but this break is a real blessing.
Well, we had a heavy snow this weekend and I haven't bought any winter shoes since losing weight so I set out on Saturday to find some. Never in my life have I been able to buy a pair of knee boots because my legs have always been too fat. On a whim I decided to try some on and miraculosly they fit! So I bought them! I wore them on Sunday morning to Church and I told my dad I felt like I was dressed like a hooker - dress capri's, sequined tank, leather jacket and the new boots. I felt much better when my friend walked in with the same outfit on - only she had on a sweater instead of the tank top. I'll try to get my dad to take a picture of me in my boots next time so I can post it.
Have a great Christmas everyone! Blessings to all! Kari
I found a new Church to go to for a bit - I feel more comfortable there right now. No questions no expectations! It's great! I had been going to a women's Bible study there for a few weeks and decided to try out the worship service. I am enjoying sleeping in on Sunday and not being rushed and not having to be it on Sunday morning. Don't miss understand there are things I do miss but this break is a real blessing.
Well, we had a heavy snow this weekend and I haven't bought any winter shoes since losing weight so I set out on Saturday to find some. Never in my life have I been able to buy a pair of knee boots because my legs have always been too fat. On a whim I decided to try some on and miraculosly they fit! So I bought them! I wore them on Sunday morning to Church and I told my dad I felt like I was dressed like a hooker - dress capri's, sequined tank, leather jacket and the new boots. I felt much better when my friend walked in with the same outfit on - only she had on a sweater instead of the tank top. I'll try to get my dad to take a picture of me in my boots next time so I can post it.
Have a great Christmas everyone! Blessings to all! Kari
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Behold, ALL things are new
Wow! I can't share everything with you but I will say that everyday I experience something new in my new looks. As I have said before, Tim, one of the Biggest Loser trainers, has been letting me help with his two teams. I was chatting with a couple of the ladies and I find that still relate or categorize myself with people that weigh what I used to weigh - even though they don't see me that way at all. Kinda like having an out of body experience - only it's all the time.
My body is healing fairly quickly. My Doctor has not released me to work out just yet but maybe this week. Although, I still haven't found a new trainer - I have asked a couple of people to check to see if there is a strength and conditioning coach at the U of A that will take a private client. Two of the trainers at the gym were U of A coaches and I seem to respond better to that type of trainer. The two guys at the gym don't have time to fit me into their schedule so I'm looking outside the gym for a new trainer. I hope to have something set up by January at the latest. I really miss the challenging workouts. I can workout alone but I need someone yelling in my ear pushing me to really get something out of it.
Complete healing quickly and a new trainer are at the top of my prayer list for this time. God has a way of working things out and I'm sure I haven't lost all this weight and gone through the surgery just to have God leave the rest to me. He will provide somehow I'm sure.
I feel weird not doing Christmas at The Salvation Army but I am helping Hank with his kettle coordinator stuff and picking up kettles and meeting volunteers for him. I have to admit I am relieved to not have all that responsibility this year! I just don't think I'm quite up to the pressure yet.
I started a new Women's Bible Study and really liked it! I might try out the Church on Sunday. My counselor thinks that I will recoup better and quicker if I have as little contact with the Army as possible - we'll see. I can send my niece to the Roger's Corps now that the new officer's are here. We'll see what transpires.
Blessings to all! Kari
My body is healing fairly quickly. My Doctor has not released me to work out just yet but maybe this week. Although, I still haven't found a new trainer - I have asked a couple of people to check to see if there is a strength and conditioning coach at the U of A that will take a private client. Two of the trainers at the gym were U of A coaches and I seem to respond better to that type of trainer. The two guys at the gym don't have time to fit me into their schedule so I'm looking outside the gym for a new trainer. I hope to have something set up by January at the latest. I really miss the challenging workouts. I can workout alone but I need someone yelling in my ear pushing me to really get something out of it.
Complete healing quickly and a new trainer are at the top of my prayer list for this time. God has a way of working things out and I'm sure I haven't lost all this weight and gone through the surgery just to have God leave the rest to me. He will provide somehow I'm sure.
I feel weird not doing Christmas at The Salvation Army but I am helping Hank with his kettle coordinator stuff and picking up kettles and meeting volunteers for him. I have to admit I am relieved to not have all that responsibility this year! I just don't think I'm quite up to the pressure yet.
I started a new Women's Bible Study and really liked it! I might try out the Church on Sunday. My counselor thinks that I will recoup better and quicker if I have as little contact with the Army as possible - we'll see. I can send my niece to the Roger's Corps now that the new officer's are here. We'll see what transpires.
Blessings to all! Kari
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Restful Holiday Weekend
Greetings to all! We have had a good restful few days - well, at least I have - Hank has still been doing Christmas Kettles for The Salvation Army in Rogers. We went to Russellville for our Thanksgiving meal - YUM!!!!!!! Last year I ate a healthy choice tv dinner so this year I was thrilled that I actually got to eat real food and yes, I ate too much but then don't we all. As an old friend used to tell me - "Everything in moderation" so once or twice a year is okay.
I have so much to be thankful for this year - so much change and so much that God has begun in me this year. I thought I had life figured out and then God surprised me in so many ways! New friends, new likes, new lifestyle & new body. All year He has worked to remind me - no, convince me of how much He loves me. I have always known that He loved me but am just now learning that He cherishes me as well. I am beginning to understand that - I won't say that I am there but I'm getting there. It has always been easy for me to tell others even show others how much God loves and cherishes them and yet I never really grasped that He felt that way about me. This year has been for me.
I'm starting a women's Bible study this week at a Church that a friend attends - I'm excited to meet some new ladies and develop some relationships away from the Army and away from the gym. It will be refreshing!
I'm feeling better and almost have my stamina back - it will be better when I can begin working out again. My Doctor said that as soon as I can sneeze and it not hurt that I can start with the personal training - pray that I find a personal trainer by then. I need one for I think 2 or 3 times a week. I don't think I need everyday anymore - I only want to lose 15 to 20 more pounds plus I want to work on writing some of my own workouts so that I can practice writing them for others. I wrote one for the Biggest Loser teams last week and took them through it - they said it was tough. I really enjoyed it and I believe that God will allow me to use this new gift when I go back to the Army full-time again.
Bless you all as we enter this Holy Season! May you experience anew God's indescribable gift! Kari
I have so much to be thankful for this year - so much change and so much that God has begun in me this year. I thought I had life figured out and then God surprised me in so many ways! New friends, new likes, new lifestyle & new body. All year He has worked to remind me - no, convince me of how much He loves me. I have always known that He loved me but am just now learning that He cherishes me as well. I am beginning to understand that - I won't say that I am there but I'm getting there. It has always been easy for me to tell others even show others how much God loves and cherishes them and yet I never really grasped that He felt that way about me. This year has been for me.
I'm starting a women's Bible study this week at a Church that a friend attends - I'm excited to meet some new ladies and develop some relationships away from the Army and away from the gym. It will be refreshing!
I'm feeling better and almost have my stamina back - it will be better when I can begin working out again. My Doctor said that as soon as I can sneeze and it not hurt that I can start with the personal training - pray that I find a personal trainer by then. I need one for I think 2 or 3 times a week. I don't think I need everyday anymore - I only want to lose 15 to 20 more pounds plus I want to work on writing some of my own workouts so that I can practice writing them for others. I wrote one for the Biggest Loser teams last week and took them through it - they said it was tough. I really enjoyed it and I believe that God will allow me to use this new gift when I go back to the Army full-time again.
Bless you all as we enter this Holy Season! May you experience anew God's indescribable gift! Kari
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Weirdness!
Greetings friends!
I'm back, I did well during my 14 hour surgery and 4 day stay in the hospital. Not exactly what I was expecting but as always God works things out for our best. I am pleased with the results so far and everyone else seems to be as well. It's cool to sit down and not have your stomach sticking out in front of you. And I didn't think about it before but my glutes really tightened up as well - didn't plan on losing my butt. =-)
The Doc said that the swelling would continue to go down for 2-4 months or even longer but I'll do some pictures as soon as it's possible.
I hate not being able to workout but the Doc has let me back on the treadmill and I hang out at the gym and watch everyone else and I still get to help with two of the new Biggest Loser teams so I am happy.
I want to thank everyone for praying for me! I appreciate it and ask that you keep it up as I get used to the new Kari and develop some new goals and plans! God is so good my friends - so GOOD!
Love and Blessings! Kari
I'm back, I did well during my 14 hour surgery and 4 day stay in the hospital. Not exactly what I was expecting but as always God works things out for our best. I am pleased with the results so far and everyone else seems to be as well. It's cool to sit down and not have your stomach sticking out in front of you. And I didn't think about it before but my glutes really tightened up as well - didn't plan on losing my butt. =-)
The Doc said that the swelling would continue to go down for 2-4 months or even longer but I'll do some pictures as soon as it's possible.
I hate not being able to workout but the Doc has let me back on the treadmill and I hang out at the gym and watch everyone else and I still get to help with two of the new Biggest Loser teams so I am happy.
I want to thank everyone for praying for me! I appreciate it and ask that you keep it up as I get used to the new Kari and develop some new goals and plans! God is so good my friends - so GOOD!
Love and Blessings! Kari
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Peace, Be Still!
Hello friends! This week is the big week! Thursday I get to go to sleep and wake up 20lbs lighter. My kind of weightloss!
I have to say God seems to be giving me strength and courage as I seem to be more at peace this week than last. I am still scared and worried about some things but I know God is going to take care of everything! I am pretty sure I will be happy with the outcome but I just hope some of my gym friends won't be dissappointed. I think maybe they have seen too many makeover shows and are expecting me to be thin and I don't think that is ever going to be the case just thinner than I am now - it's all relative. I never thought I would be down to the size I am now so I will be happy with the outcome I think - especially my arms! I can't wait to see the muscle that I've been building up over the past year.
God has also been showing me ways to use this time as a new start and to work on some areas that I need to give to Him. Kinda like doing new years resolutions now and taking care of some internal house-keeping. A couple of people that I need to make things right with, few people I need to see, few things I need to do.
Hank is gonna take a picture on Wednesday and then another after the swelling has all gone down and I'll post them for all to see. I love you all! Kari
"Love much, forgive always, serve others, live for Christ!" Kari (October 2007)
I have to say God seems to be giving me strength and courage as I seem to be more at peace this week than last. I am still scared and worried about some things but I know God is going to take care of everything! I am pretty sure I will be happy with the outcome but I just hope some of my gym friends won't be dissappointed. I think maybe they have seen too many makeover shows and are expecting me to be thin and I don't think that is ever going to be the case just thinner than I am now - it's all relative. I never thought I would be down to the size I am now so I will be happy with the outcome I think - especially my arms! I can't wait to see the muscle that I've been building up over the past year.
God has also been showing me ways to use this time as a new start and to work on some areas that I need to give to Him. Kinda like doing new years resolutions now and taking care of some internal house-keeping. A couple of people that I need to make things right with, few people I need to see, few things I need to do.
Hank is gonna take a picture on Wednesday and then another after the swelling has all gone down and I'll post them for all to see. I love you all! Kari
"Love much, forgive always, serve others, live for Christ!" Kari (October 2007)
Monday, October 22, 2007
10 Days & Counting
FEAR!
Perfect love casts out fear - I know this, I believe this and yet it bears it's ugly head! I really hope I'm doing the right thing for the right reasons. Soon we will all know. That may be what frighten's me the most - if it is a mistake it won't be easy to hide. This is right out there for everyone to see.
My faith is strong but my flesh is weak - can I muster the resolve to listen to God and ignore my flesh. The next few weeks will tell.
I am moving Tuesday to our new house. That will give us a week to settle in before the surgery. UGH! Plus we have to find a recliner from somewhere - we were gonna buy one but our miniature daschund is in the hospital with a spine injury and who knows how much that will cost us! This has happened before so we may have to put him to sleep this time - Hank just loves this dog so I hope not but we don't want him to suffer either.
I went to Church yesterday for the first time not in the role of an Officer - I went incognito - no uniform - it went OK, different but okay.
I better go for now! Blessings to all! Kari
Perfect love casts out fear - I know this, I believe this and yet it bears it's ugly head! I really hope I'm doing the right thing for the right reasons. Soon we will all know. That may be what frighten's me the most - if it is a mistake it won't be easy to hide. This is right out there for everyone to see.
My faith is strong but my flesh is weak - can I muster the resolve to listen to God and ignore my flesh. The next few weeks will tell.
I am moving Tuesday to our new house. That will give us a week to settle in before the surgery. UGH! Plus we have to find a recliner from somewhere - we were gonna buy one but our miniature daschund is in the hospital with a spine injury and who knows how much that will cost us! This has happened before so we may have to put him to sleep this time - Hank just loves this dog so I hope not but we don't want him to suffer either.
I went to Church yesterday for the first time not in the role of an Officer - I went incognito - no uniform - it went OK, different but okay.
I better go for now! Blessings to all! Kari
Friday, October 12, 2007
3 weeks & counting
As my surgery draws closer my anxiety level is definately rising. I am trying to ignore all the what-if questions that seem to be swirling around in my mind. I know that perfect love casts out fear and His love is perfect - I just have to wrap my head and emotions around that right now. My faith seems to be weaker than I thought it was but it only has to be the size of a mustard seed and I KNOW He is with me and will not fail. It is not His ability I doubt but it is my ability. So much change has taken place in me physically and emotionally this year but it was facilitated by others and now this new journey seems to rest solely on me and I am not confident that I have what it takes to go it alone and yet those around me are telling me I need to go it alone so that I will take ownership of the change. Perhaps they are right - this really is the only area of my life I lack confidence in. I am secure in my relationship with my Lord, I am a good Salvation Army Officer, & a good Pastor - just not so sure I am able to remake myself in the areas that need some adjusting. The next few months are going to be a challenge and I hate the unknowingness of it all! I just have to believe I'm not making a mistake and I have to determine that I am going to do this for me and not to please anyone else. I'm going to do this for me because I'm worth it no matter what anyone else thinks.
Have a great week! My posts may be fewer because I don't have a computer anymore but I'll do my best!
Love, Kari
Have a great week! My posts may be fewer because I don't have a computer anymore but I'll do my best!
Love, Kari
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Farewell Sunday
Today is my farewell from the Rogers Salvation Army. After today I will not have any Officer duties for at least six months. I am relieved and yet apprehensive - this is all I've known for sooooooo long - 13 years. And even though it is only temporary I feel a bit guilty - like I've let someone down. I know that feeling is not coming from the Lord so I am choosing to see it as what it is - Satan trying to put condemnation on one of God's children.
I accomplished one of my goals yesterday - I ran in my first 5K run and yes, I ran the entire way!!!!=-D I was shocked - I thought I would have to walk at least part of the way but I didn't. I even was able to keep going up an incredibly long hill. It felt good to finish.
I plan to test for my personal training certification in March so now I will begin to work towards that now that I will have more time to myself. And, of course, my surgery is in less than a month! UGH!
God is good and He will see me through!
Love you ALL! Pray for me as pray for you! Kari
I accomplished one of my goals yesterday - I ran in my first 5K run and yes, I ran the entire way!!!!=-D I was shocked - I thought I would have to walk at least part of the way but I didn't. I even was able to keep going up an incredibly long hill. It felt good to finish.
I plan to test for my personal training certification in March so now I will begin to work towards that now that I will have more time to myself. And, of course, my surgery is in less than a month! UGH!
God is good and He will see me through!
Love you ALL! Pray for me as pray for you! Kari
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Weighed in the balance - Amos 7:7-8
Good morning friends! This week has been eventful to say the least. I worked with 2 of my 3 new trainers this week. I have to admit that during my boxing workout on Friday I actually had MORE fun than my usual boxing workout and man did it make me sore!!! Tim had me chasing him more and staying up on the balls of my feet - really made my calves hurt! He also is showing me how to shadow box, use the heavy bag and the double ended bag - I feel silly shadow boxing and hitting the heavy bag makes my arms sore but I just love boxing so it is all good. Too, I noticed this week that I have been burning 150-200 more calories per workout - I think maybe I had just gotten a bit too comfortable in my old workouts. Change is always hard and often very painful but God is in control and HIS PLAN IS PERFECT. I do praise Him that He can take ALL the circumstances in my life and use them to make me into what He desires me to be. It amazes me sometimes that He can use even the bad things that happen to us and work them for our good.
Amos 7:7-8 says this "Then the Lord made me see this sight: there He was, standing beside a wall with a plum line in His hand. Then the Lord said to me, 'what do you see, Amos?' And I said, 'a plumb line.' And the Lord replied, 'see, I test my people Israel by the straightness of this line, and I will not relent again.'"
God's standard of holiness is absolute. His requirements of His people are set in His word. They are expected even demanded and yet they are not burdensome when you understand His reasoning. A life of holiness is in line with God's perfect peace - God's perfect peace bring joy and contentment. I have been reminded this week to examine my life and to look and see if i am living a holy life - am I being Christ to those around me? Am I showing God's love to ALL those I come in contact with or only those I find it convenient to love? Jesus never wavered in His love - He even loved His enemies - I must love everyone I come in contact with regardless of whether I feel they deserve it or not. We are all created by the same loving God and each of us brings differing gifts to this table of life - our responsibility is to love everyone as He loves them, to see the potential in each soul that He sees. Live a life of holiness and love unconditionally. The purpose of my life is to serve God with a life of holiness and serve my fellow man with an unconditional love. Then my life will measure up to God's plumb line. Albert Einstein said this, "only a life lived for others is a life worth living." Friends, what have you done for someone else today - this week? What have you done for the Lord? Is your life one marked by holiness and love? It is my prayer that God will continue to bring forth these qualities in greater measure in my life - may it be true for us all.
Love and prayers, Kari
Amos 7:7-8 says this "Then the Lord made me see this sight: there He was, standing beside a wall with a plum line in His hand. Then the Lord said to me, 'what do you see, Amos?' And I said, 'a plumb line.' And the Lord replied, 'see, I test my people Israel by the straightness of this line, and I will not relent again.'"
God's standard of holiness is absolute. His requirements of His people are set in His word. They are expected even demanded and yet they are not burdensome when you understand His reasoning. A life of holiness is in line with God's perfect peace - God's perfect peace bring joy and contentment. I have been reminded this week to examine my life and to look and see if i am living a holy life - am I being Christ to those around me? Am I showing God's love to ALL those I come in contact with or only those I find it convenient to love? Jesus never wavered in His love - He even loved His enemies - I must love everyone I come in contact with regardless of whether I feel they deserve it or not. We are all created by the same loving God and each of us brings differing gifts to this table of life - our responsibility is to love everyone as He loves them, to see the potential in each soul that He sees. Live a life of holiness and love unconditionally. The purpose of my life is to serve God with a life of holiness and serve my fellow man with an unconditional love. Then my life will measure up to God's plumb line. Albert Einstein said this, "only a life lived for others is a life worth living." Friends, what have you done for someone else today - this week? What have you done for the Lord? Is your life one marked by holiness and love? It is my prayer that God will continue to bring forth these qualities in greater measure in my life - may it be true for us all.
Love and prayers, Kari
Saturday, September 22, 2007
It IS well with my soul
Today was a hard day for me. I am going to stop training with my old personal trainer and try out another for a while to see if it perhaps jumpstarts my weightloss again. This makes me sad and a bit frightened because I'm not convinced it is completely the best thing but it is worth a try. I do know this - nothing is allowed to happen to me that God does not allow. And with all things He never lets go of my hand and will walk through this new venture with me just as He has been walking with me this past year. I may even work with two different trainers because I really want to continue with my boxing and there is a trainer at the gym who I think can teach me more.
At any rate my surgery is in less than 6 weeks and I still feel afraid about this. I worry about the recovery time and how hard it is going to be to get my strength built back up to where it is now. Again though, I know God will be with me and rarely does anything go wrong in these surgeries so I should be okay when it is all said and done. And, even though I am scared I am also excited to see what muscles might be visible with the skin removed.=-)
I went to see my psychologist this week in Tulsa - he said some interesting things and one that made me laugh. We were talking about the weightloss and how I feel if I could do it anyone can do it and he said I am wrong in my thinking. He said I brought things to the table that not everyone has and he listed, determination, strength and then he said "and too you are obviously atheletic" - does that not make you laugh? I can say I have never thought of myself as athletic - nor would I ever in a million years. And I'm not so sure about the determination part either. He says by thinking that everyone can do this I negate my worth and that my self-image does not fall in line with my own theology if I believe we were all created in our mothers womb by God and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I will just have to try and wrap my head around where my personal theology and my self-image don't match.
I do know that we all have worth, we are all loved deeply by a creator that desires a personal relationship with us and that we all have a purpose. We are called to love Him, serve Him and serve each other. May I never lose sight of that.
Have a blessed week! Know that He loves you and so do I! Kari
At any rate my surgery is in less than 6 weeks and I still feel afraid about this. I worry about the recovery time and how hard it is going to be to get my strength built back up to where it is now. Again though, I know God will be with me and rarely does anything go wrong in these surgeries so I should be okay when it is all said and done. And, even though I am scared I am also excited to see what muscles might be visible with the skin removed.=-)
I went to see my psychologist this week in Tulsa - he said some interesting things and one that made me laugh. We were talking about the weightloss and how I feel if I could do it anyone can do it and he said I am wrong in my thinking. He said I brought things to the table that not everyone has and he listed, determination, strength and then he said "and too you are obviously atheletic" - does that not make you laugh? I can say I have never thought of myself as athletic - nor would I ever in a million years. And I'm not so sure about the determination part either. He says by thinking that everyone can do this I negate my worth and that my self-image does not fall in line with my own theology if I believe we were all created in our mothers womb by God and that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I will just have to try and wrap my head around where my personal theology and my self-image don't match.
I do know that we all have worth, we are all loved deeply by a creator that desires a personal relationship with us and that we all have a purpose. We are called to love Him, serve Him and serve each other. May I never lose sight of that.
Have a blessed week! Know that He loves you and so do I! Kari
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Good News!
Good morning friends! I pray that everyone has a good Sunday and good fellowship in the Lord's house!
My week has been a good one for the most part. I found out Wednesday that my insurance is going to pay for my surgery. Amazing! I didn't think they would but they approved it at THQ. Now I just have to wait to hear about the sick leave. My surgery is scheduled for November 1 and pre-op is October 31. Seems appropriate after this year of change and weirdness that Halloween be the last day in this costume!=-D Not sure what the new one will look like but it will be a bit different. My fear is that people are expecting too much change and will be disappointed in the outcome - especially those at the gym. I think the only really visible difference will be in my arms - I've been able to hide my stomach skin well so I don't think they'll see a difference there. We'll see. I will never be thin but this will help with mobility allot and I'll be able to do things better like sit-ups and crunches and jumping jacks and well everything.
I decided this week too that most of my goals this past year have dealt with weight and who I am is not what I weigh so I wanted to make some goals that were totally different from weight goals. My trainer helped me come up with a few to try and do before my surgery and then we will have to set new ones to get me back up to speed. For right now we have increased the treadmill speed on the Warrior Workout, we are working towards running at 8 degree incline and 8 mph. Friday I made it 7.5/7.5 - it was very scary for me! I think I'll get better at it though. I also want to be able to do at least one pull-up and one dip (holding your body weight with your arms and lowering yourself down and back up). I'm not so sure I will be able to do those - my arm strength is pretty weak.
My blood sugar has been doing some weird things this week as well - pray for me that I'll get it figured out. Friday evening when I got off work it was at 68 - pretty low for the end of the day and I'm pretty sure it was way low at the end of my workout Friday. I think I need to find a better balance of Carbs and Proteins - I had eaten allot of proteins Friday but not many carbs so that could have been the deal. I've been wanting to get down to 190 before my surgery so I've been playing with my diet a bit to try and get there. I've got 45 days too try and get there - we'll see what happens.
I sorta get the morning off today since it is Men's Sunday and Major Watts is coming to do the service. It will be nice to sit and listen again. I still need to do a couple of things before the service so I better go get busy!
I love you all and will be praying for each of you today. Kari
My week has been a good one for the most part. I found out Wednesday that my insurance is going to pay for my surgery. Amazing! I didn't think they would but they approved it at THQ. Now I just have to wait to hear about the sick leave. My surgery is scheduled for November 1 and pre-op is October 31. Seems appropriate after this year of change and weirdness that Halloween be the last day in this costume!=-D Not sure what the new one will look like but it will be a bit different. My fear is that people are expecting too much change and will be disappointed in the outcome - especially those at the gym. I think the only really visible difference will be in my arms - I've been able to hide my stomach skin well so I don't think they'll see a difference there. We'll see. I will never be thin but this will help with mobility allot and I'll be able to do things better like sit-ups and crunches and jumping jacks and well everything.
I decided this week too that most of my goals this past year have dealt with weight and who I am is not what I weigh so I wanted to make some goals that were totally different from weight goals. My trainer helped me come up with a few to try and do before my surgery and then we will have to set new ones to get me back up to speed. For right now we have increased the treadmill speed on the Warrior Workout, we are working towards running at 8 degree incline and 8 mph. Friday I made it 7.5/7.5 - it was very scary for me! I think I'll get better at it though. I also want to be able to do at least one pull-up and one dip (holding your body weight with your arms and lowering yourself down and back up). I'm not so sure I will be able to do those - my arm strength is pretty weak.
My blood sugar has been doing some weird things this week as well - pray for me that I'll get it figured out. Friday evening when I got off work it was at 68 - pretty low for the end of the day and I'm pretty sure it was way low at the end of my workout Friday. I think I need to find a better balance of Carbs and Proteins - I had eaten allot of proteins Friday but not many carbs so that could have been the deal. I've been wanting to get down to 190 before my surgery so I've been playing with my diet a bit to try and get there. I've got 45 days too try and get there - we'll see what happens.
I sorta get the morning off today since it is Men's Sunday and Major Watts is coming to do the service. It will be nice to sit and listen again. I still need to do a couple of things before the service so I better go get busy!
I love you all and will be praying for each of you today. Kari
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Surgery Scheduled!
Well, I did it - today I went and scheduled the surgery! November 1, 2007 at 7:30am. I cried after I did it - although I want to have it done it is still very scary! I even cried during my workout today - I didn't really expect it to hit me like this but it did. I've gone through a lot of change this year - what's a little more? Right? Anyway - please pray for me as I try to wrap my head around the fact that it is going to happen.
Thanks! Kari
Thanks! Kari
Sunday, September 2, 2007
My Chains Are Gone
Good morning friends! I found a new song this weekend that has really spoken to me about how complete God's provision for us is - even in the hard times! It's called "Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)" by Chris Tomlin.
Amazing graceHow sweet the soundThat saved a wretch like meI once was lost, but now I'm foundWas blind, but now I see'Twas grace that taught my heart to fearAnd grace my fears relievedHow precious did that grace appearThe hour I first believed
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing graceThe Lord has promised good to meHis word my hope securesHe will my shield and portion beAs long as life endures
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing grace
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing graceThe earth shall soon dissolve like snowThe sun forbear to shineBut God, Who called me here belowWill be forever mineWill be forever mineYou are forever mine...
Listen to it if you can, it really is beautiful.
Things seem to be progressing well regarding my sick leave. Hopefully by the end of the month it will be approved. My surgery is to be the last week in October - I'm a bit frightened but excited at the same time. One of the things the song reminded me about is that I don't have to go through this all alone - He has been on this journey with me all along and will continue to be with me or what is left of me when all is said and done.=-D
Friends, I pray that your holiday weekend was blessed and restful. Know that He loves you so much and longs to take you to new levels of intimacy in your relationship with Him. Dive in - let Him remove the chains and set you free to love and be loved. I'm praying just that for you today! Kari
Amazing graceHow sweet the soundThat saved a wretch like meI once was lost, but now I'm foundWas blind, but now I see'Twas grace that taught my heart to fearAnd grace my fears relievedHow precious did that grace appearThe hour I first believed
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing graceThe Lord has promised good to meHis word my hope securesHe will my shield and portion beAs long as life endures
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing grace
My chains are goneI've been set freeMy God, my Savior has ransomed meAnd like a flood His mercy reignsUnending love, Amazing graceThe earth shall soon dissolve like snowThe sun forbear to shineBut God, Who called me here belowWill be forever mineWill be forever mineYou are forever mine...
Listen to it if you can, it really is beautiful.
Things seem to be progressing well regarding my sick leave. Hopefully by the end of the month it will be approved. My surgery is to be the last week in October - I'm a bit frightened but excited at the same time. One of the things the song reminded me about is that I don't have to go through this all alone - He has been on this journey with me all along and will continue to be with me or what is left of me when all is said and done.=-D
Friends, I pray that your holiday weekend was blessed and restful. Know that He loves you so much and longs to take you to new levels of intimacy in your relationship with Him. Dive in - let Him remove the chains and set you free to love and be loved. I'm praying just that for you today! Kari
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Well, here goes.......
.... I heard today that I got the loan to pay for my surgery since insurance won't do it. At first I was extremely happy but then I got a little - well, a whole lot - scared about it. Now that the surgery is in my grasp all these doubts pop up. I know that God will take care of me - he wouldn't have brought me this far to not finish the process.
Pray for me - that HE would calm my fears and work out all the other details and help me get the surgery scheduled at the right time.
I hope everyone is having a good week - mine has been so far, good friends came to visit, a couple of good workouts, my back feels better and now the loan came through.
Blessings to all! Kari
Pray for me - that HE would calm my fears and work out all the other details and help me get the surgery scheduled at the right time.
I hope everyone is having a good week - mine has been so far, good friends came to visit, a couple of good workouts, my back feels better and now the loan came through.
Blessings to all! Kari
Sunday, August 26, 2007
The Warrior
Well, it's Sunday afternoon...Church was especially hard this morning. A Church member hurt me deeply this week and it is always hard to have to stand and preach looking at someone who can be so cruel but I know that at some times we all can be cruel to one another.
A week ago this past Friday I tried the Warrior workout in my personal training session. It is very hard. I start out on the treadmill at 5 speed and five incline and run for 25 seconds then jump off and do 2 or 3 exercises usually something with dumbbells then back on the treadmill you stay at 5/5 for three runs then it goes up to 6 speed and 6 incline and do it for three rounds with things in between each run. Then it goes to 7 speed and 7 incline for three runs. 7 is very fast for me and really scares me - I always picture myself flying off the back of the treadmill. I can usually make the first run at 7/7 okay but then fatigue and fear set in and it gets harder. Now my trainer is standing just to my left and a little behind me - I can't see him but I can hear him and I know he's there and when I start to slow down too much he'll put his hand on my back and kind of push me forward while telling me to run faster. A week ago I was okay until I quit listening to him and started focusing on my fear and my tiredness and then I freaked out and grabbed on to the treadmill. I quit trusting him to make sure I didn't fall. While I was freaking out I realized that life is a lot like that run on the treadmill - we know God is there, sometimes we can hear him encouraging us and cheering us on and sometimes we even feel His hand upon us pushing us in the way we should go - the problem is when we start focusing on our problems and our fears we freak out and lose that trust and are likely to reach out and grab whatever is closest to us or whatever we think will hold us up. We have to remember to listen for His voice, to remember He's right there with us - He said He would NEVER leave us or forsake us - and we need to know that when we need it He will put His hand on us and push us towards the finish line.
After I thought about this a bit I decided I would ask my trainer if we could try the Warrior again and see if I could keep my focus and go all the way through it without grabbing the treadmill. So, this Friday we tried it again and I made it through - I still was really scared and tried to talk my way out of it but I did make it through without holding on at all. It made me feel like I had really accomplished something even though it wasn't a perfect run.
I know that the things in my life that seem so up in the air right now are also things I don't need to worry about - just Trust Him to be there with me - I don't have to believe in myself because He believes in me - I just have to TRUST Him.
I've been going to a therapist lately and we talk about the things I like to do - one being boxing. He tells me I should find a way to do it more than once a week and when I am boxing to think of all the things that are bugging me and just beat them away and then go write about how it felt. I might try it on Tuesday - I always get to box on Tuesday (have I told you all that my gloves and hand wraps are pink?). I told my therapist that if I believed in reincarnation I'd like to come back as a boxer. I wonder if there will be boxing in heaven? I'm sure there will be baseball so boxing should be there too! ;-D LOL!
Have a great week my friends - remember He's right there with you and you can Trust Him to keep you from falling. Love, Kari
A week ago this past Friday I tried the Warrior workout in my personal training session. It is very hard. I start out on the treadmill at 5 speed and five incline and run for 25 seconds then jump off and do 2 or 3 exercises usually something with dumbbells then back on the treadmill you stay at 5/5 for three runs then it goes up to 6 speed and 6 incline and do it for three rounds with things in between each run. Then it goes to 7 speed and 7 incline for three runs. 7 is very fast for me and really scares me - I always picture myself flying off the back of the treadmill. I can usually make the first run at 7/7 okay but then fatigue and fear set in and it gets harder. Now my trainer is standing just to my left and a little behind me - I can't see him but I can hear him and I know he's there and when I start to slow down too much he'll put his hand on my back and kind of push me forward while telling me to run faster. A week ago I was okay until I quit listening to him and started focusing on my fear and my tiredness and then I freaked out and grabbed on to the treadmill. I quit trusting him to make sure I didn't fall. While I was freaking out I realized that life is a lot like that run on the treadmill - we know God is there, sometimes we can hear him encouraging us and cheering us on and sometimes we even feel His hand upon us pushing us in the way we should go - the problem is when we start focusing on our problems and our fears we freak out and lose that trust and are likely to reach out and grab whatever is closest to us or whatever we think will hold us up. We have to remember to listen for His voice, to remember He's right there with us - He said He would NEVER leave us or forsake us - and we need to know that when we need it He will put His hand on us and push us towards the finish line.
After I thought about this a bit I decided I would ask my trainer if we could try the Warrior again and see if I could keep my focus and go all the way through it without grabbing the treadmill. So, this Friday we tried it again and I made it through - I still was really scared and tried to talk my way out of it but I did make it through without holding on at all. It made me feel like I had really accomplished something even though it wasn't a perfect run.
I know that the things in my life that seem so up in the air right now are also things I don't need to worry about - just Trust Him to be there with me - I don't have to believe in myself because He believes in me - I just have to TRUST Him.
I've been going to a therapist lately and we talk about the things I like to do - one being boxing. He tells me I should find a way to do it more than once a week and when I am boxing to think of all the things that are bugging me and just beat them away and then go write about how it felt. I might try it on Tuesday - I always get to box on Tuesday (have I told you all that my gloves and hand wraps are pink?). I told my therapist that if I believed in reincarnation I'd like to come back as a boxer. I wonder if there will be boxing in heaven? I'm sure there will be baseball so boxing should be there too! ;-D LOL!
Have a great week my friends - remember He's right there with you and you can Trust Him to keep you from falling. Love, Kari
Sunday, August 19, 2007
It's Funny....
Good Sunday Morning! Today finds me refreshed after a fun day of visiting and shopping in OKC. Bought school clothes for Lorenzo & LaQuetta and 3 boxing t-shirts and a boxing jacket - really cool. Mostly though just clothes for the kids. We ate lunch with great friends in OKC at Louie's, a restaurant on Lake Hefner - great food.
Here is today's sermon title: "It's Funny"
Romans 7:14-8:4 (New Living Translation)
Struggling with Sin
14 So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. 15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[b] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.
Romans 8
Life in the Spirit
1 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. 2 And because you belong to him, the power[c] of the life-giving Spirit has freed you[d] from the power of sin that leads to death. 3 The law of Moses was unable to save us because of the weakness of our sinful nature.[e] So God did what the law could not do. He sent his own Son in a body like the bodies we sinners have. And in that body God declared an end to sin’s control over us by giving his Son as a sacrifice for our sins. 4 He did this so that the just requirement of the law would be fully satisfied for us, who no longer follow our sinful nature but instead follow the Spirit.
Do you struggle with sin? Do you seem to always get stuck in the same rut doing the same things you don't want to do? Do you fail to do the things you want to do? You are NOT alone! This is the classic struggle that we all face. Paul faced it, I face it, everyone who has ever lived or will live that is a follower of Christ has faced it. The classic struggle between our human nature and the Spirit of God working in us.
Have you ever wondered why this is so hard for us? Why we just can't seem to obey Him even though we want to. Sometimes I even wish that God would just smack me over the head and make me obey Him but that is not how God works. He does though sometimes use some interesting things and circumstances to get our attention. Lets look at a few passages in scripture that show God's unique way of getting peoples attention.
It's funny how a big ol' fish can hear Your voice and find one man in the whole ocean and swallow him whole - because You said so. Jonah 1:17
It's funny how a little plant can hear Your voice and grow as big as a tent to give that man a home because You said so. Jonah 4:6
It's funny how the bright ol' sun can hear Your voice along its way and stop in the middle of the sky for an entire day because You said so. Joshua 10:13
It's funny how a donkey can hear Your voice and talk instead of bray to set Your child on his way because You said so. Numbers 22:28-31
And You speak to me all the time and I can't obey You to save my life.
Well, I can but I don't, and I want to but I won't.
I do what I don't mean to and I'm confused.
It's funny how a fish can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how a plant can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how the sun can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how a donkey can obey You but I can't.
He speaks to you and I all the time - we hear His voice - most of us, most of the time, want to obey Him and yet we let things and opportunities slip by without our taking action. We just don't do what we want to do. At times He speaks to us in warning - telling us not to do something, not to say something, not to go somewhere - we want to obey Him but we give in to temptation and do the very thing we don't want to do.
Are we doomed then. Is there not hope for us? Can nothing be done to help us? "Thank God! The answer is in Christ Jesus our Lord. In my mind I really want to obey God's law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin. But, there is therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. For the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you through Christ Jesus from the power of sin." Jesus paid the penalty for all my failures, all my downfalls, all my missed opportunities.
Yet we now have an obligation to fight that sinful nature with His help. Romans 8:12 says, "So, dear brothers and sister, you have no obligation whatsoever to do what your sinful nature urges you to do." FIGHT IT!
I bought a t-shirt yesterday that says "When things get tough...fight another round." You and I know that we have been given the victory through Christ Jesus therefore we must continue to stand and fight! Yes, we may fail at times but as we mature in Christ and learn to fight sin and temptation with His strength then we will begin to see a change in us. We will see that we are doing the things we want to do and aren't doing the things we don't because His strength gives us the ability to do what He wants us to do.
Stand and fight another round!
May you all be blessed this day and throughout the week. May you see His hand upon you each day, my you cling to that hand and find strength for your journey.
My love to you all, Kari
Here is today's sermon title: "It's Funny"
Romans 7:14-8:4 (New Living Translation)
Struggling with Sin
14 So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. 15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another power[b] within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? 25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.
Romans 8
Life in the Spirit
1 So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. 2 And because you belong to him, the power[c] of the life-giving Spirit has freed you[d] from the power of sin that leads to death. 3 The law of Moses was unable to save us because of the weakness of our sinful nature.[e] So God did what the law could not do. He sent his own Son in a body like the bodies we sinners have. And in that body God declared an end to sin’s control over us by giving his Son as a sacrifice for our sins. 4 He did this so that the just requirement of the law would be fully satisfied for us, who no longer follow our sinful nature but instead follow the Spirit.
Do you struggle with sin? Do you seem to always get stuck in the same rut doing the same things you don't want to do? Do you fail to do the things you want to do? You are NOT alone! This is the classic struggle that we all face. Paul faced it, I face it, everyone who has ever lived or will live that is a follower of Christ has faced it. The classic struggle between our human nature and the Spirit of God working in us.
Have you ever wondered why this is so hard for us? Why we just can't seem to obey Him even though we want to. Sometimes I even wish that God would just smack me over the head and make me obey Him but that is not how God works. He does though sometimes use some interesting things and circumstances to get our attention. Lets look at a few passages in scripture that show God's unique way of getting peoples attention.
It's funny how a big ol' fish can hear Your voice and find one man in the whole ocean and swallow him whole - because You said so. Jonah 1:17
It's funny how a little plant can hear Your voice and grow as big as a tent to give that man a home because You said so. Jonah 4:6
It's funny how the bright ol' sun can hear Your voice along its way and stop in the middle of the sky for an entire day because You said so. Joshua 10:13
It's funny how a donkey can hear Your voice and talk instead of bray to set Your child on his way because You said so. Numbers 22:28-31
And You speak to me all the time and I can't obey You to save my life.
Well, I can but I don't, and I want to but I won't.
I do what I don't mean to and I'm confused.
It's funny how a fish can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how a plant can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how the sun can obey You but I can't.
It's funny how a donkey can obey You but I can't.
He speaks to you and I all the time - we hear His voice - most of us, most of the time, want to obey Him and yet we let things and opportunities slip by without our taking action. We just don't do what we want to do. At times He speaks to us in warning - telling us not to do something, not to say something, not to go somewhere - we want to obey Him but we give in to temptation and do the very thing we don't want to do.
Are we doomed then. Is there not hope for us? Can nothing be done to help us? "Thank God! The answer is in Christ Jesus our Lord. In my mind I really want to obey God's law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin. But, there is therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. For the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you through Christ Jesus from the power of sin." Jesus paid the penalty for all my failures, all my downfalls, all my missed opportunities.
Yet we now have an obligation to fight that sinful nature with His help. Romans 8:12 says, "So, dear brothers and sister, you have no obligation whatsoever to do what your sinful nature urges you to do." FIGHT IT!
I bought a t-shirt yesterday that says "When things get tough...fight another round." You and I know that we have been given the victory through Christ Jesus therefore we must continue to stand and fight! Yes, we may fail at times but as we mature in Christ and learn to fight sin and temptation with His strength then we will begin to see a change in us. We will see that we are doing the things we want to do and aren't doing the things we don't because His strength gives us the ability to do what He wants us to do.
Stand and fight another round!
May you all be blessed this day and throughout the week. May you see His hand upon you each day, my you cling to that hand and find strength for your journey.
My love to you all, Kari
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Long week!
Hello Friends! It's Sunday morning and for a change I don't have to preach! Major Watts the Area Commander is coming for his monthly visit and is going to speak for me - hallelujah! I need the break.
This week has been a trying one...
..went to see a Christian counselor in Tulsa seems to be nice but it was stressfull all the same.
...found out I somehow messed my back up and have a herniated disk in my lower back. My trainer wants to do some rehab type exercises twice a week to strengthen my back muscles but these are boring so even though I'm sure he's right I'm not thrilled - I'd rather really get good hard exhausting workouts!
...thought insurance might pay for the skin removal but found out I have to wait for it to get infected and create ulcers before they will do anything - I saved the Army so much money doing it this way and it seems I'm going to save them even more.=-/ So, my dad is trying to figure out if there is anyone he can borrow the money from so I can get it scheduled - they want half up front before they will even schedule the surgery - I'd like to get it done in October. It is really beginning to bother me in my workouts - there is just so much in my way. I can do a sit up now if someone holds my feet but it's not easy.
...then it's been beastly hot and I have to wear long or 3/4 sleeves all the time because my arms look awful.
...I'm not going to get to go to Bible Conference because the Corps has no money. Now I'll have to wait five more years before the Army will pay for it again. POOP!
But God is good and has been with me as well. Helping me over the bumps and sending people my way to encourage me. I was also able to get the prerequsit waiver at the community college so that I could take Anatomy and Physiology I to help me with my certification process. Classes start the 20th - fun to be going back to school even if I am taking 6 hours of SCIENCE and I always hated science before. It will be better now because I see the purpose in it. I'm excited about the fall and what God is going to do for and through me! He IS in control.
PRAYER REQUESTS:
1)Approval is quick from THQ regarding my plans for the next few months.
2)We are able to find someone to loan us the money for the Surgery so I have plenty of rehab time before June moves.
3)I will find something to kick-start my losing weight again. I seem to have plateaued.
4)That God will help me to let peoples unpleasant words and actions just roll off my back and not take everything so personally.
5)That the Christian Counselor will be able to help me in this rebuilding process.
Thanks everyone! I appreciate you and love you all! Kari
This week has been a trying one...
..went to see a Christian counselor in Tulsa seems to be nice but it was stressfull all the same.
...found out I somehow messed my back up and have a herniated disk in my lower back. My trainer wants to do some rehab type exercises twice a week to strengthen my back muscles but these are boring so even though I'm sure he's right I'm not thrilled - I'd rather really get good hard exhausting workouts!
...thought insurance might pay for the skin removal but found out I have to wait for it to get infected and create ulcers before they will do anything - I saved the Army so much money doing it this way and it seems I'm going to save them even more.=-/ So, my dad is trying to figure out if there is anyone he can borrow the money from so I can get it scheduled - they want half up front before they will even schedule the surgery - I'd like to get it done in October. It is really beginning to bother me in my workouts - there is just so much in my way. I can do a sit up now if someone holds my feet but it's not easy.
...then it's been beastly hot and I have to wear long or 3/4 sleeves all the time because my arms look awful.
...I'm not going to get to go to Bible Conference because the Corps has no money. Now I'll have to wait five more years before the Army will pay for it again. POOP!
But God is good and has been with me as well. Helping me over the bumps and sending people my way to encourage me. I was also able to get the prerequsit waiver at the community college so that I could take Anatomy and Physiology I to help me with my certification process. Classes start the 20th - fun to be going back to school even if I am taking 6 hours of SCIENCE and I always hated science before. It will be better now because I see the purpose in it. I'm excited about the fall and what God is going to do for and through me! He IS in control.
PRAYER REQUESTS:
1)Approval is quick from THQ regarding my plans for the next few months.
2)We are able to find someone to loan us the money for the Surgery so I have plenty of rehab time before June moves.
3)I will find something to kick-start my losing weight again. I seem to have plateaued.
4)That God will help me to let peoples unpleasant words and actions just roll off my back and not take everything so personally.
5)That the Christian Counselor will be able to help me in this rebuilding process.
Thanks everyone! I appreciate you and love you all! Kari
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Better Questions
Good morning friends! It is one day before my 44th birthday - so much has changed in the last year! I am a different person both inside and out; smaller in size but with much more confidence in my physical abilities, wiser yet so unsure, victorious but not independent, assured of my salvation and God's love but with so many new questions.
As I mentioned I bought a new CD by Todd Agnew called "Better Questions" and I think that for the next few weeks my sermons will most likely come out of God speaking to me from these songs. If you will indulge me I will share part of todays sermon with you.
"I've got better questions than I have answers, better dreams than I have plans. I've got better thoughts than I have actions so I built my house on what I thought was solid ground but now I know it could be sand." - Todd Agnew
You and I are full of questions, dreams and thoughts but where do they lead us? Do we have all the answers? Will we ever have all the answers? What are your dreams today? What are you doing about them? What are you thinking? What actions should you be taking today?
What is our purpose? Why were we put here? Why do we endure the things we do? What does God expect of you? What is the meaning of life? We find this summed up at the end of Christ's life as He prayed for us in John 17:1-26. Ultimately the meaning of life is summed up in verse 3 - "this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent." All the rest is just fluff, filler whatever is necessary to get us to that point of "KNOWING HIM" - not just knowing about Him but actually, intimately "KNOWING HIM" in all His fullness. Knowing how much He loves you. Knowing how much He believes in you. Knowing what He desires for you and your life.
As we learn to Know Him we then must begin Trusting HIM! Trust Him for your physical needs, for your emotional needs, for your spiritual needs. Trust Him. For in knowing Him we learn He has your best interest at heart and you can trust Him for he says to you in Jeremial 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to give you a future and a hope." He wants what is best for you.
What is best though is not always the easiest and that is where it gets hard for you and I. We have to trust Him even in the hard times when life isn't exactly easy or fair. We have to endure what life throws or way knowing that God will use it to change us into the image of His son. James 1:12 says, "Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him."
The meaning of life: Know Him, Trust Him, Endure til the end. He loves you so much!
There's an old chorus that sums it up best:
"Trusting as the moments fly,
Trusting as the days go by,
Trusting Him what'ere befall,
Trusting Jesus, that is all."
Be assured of His love and of mine. Kari
As I mentioned I bought a new CD by Todd Agnew called "Better Questions" and I think that for the next few weeks my sermons will most likely come out of God speaking to me from these songs. If you will indulge me I will share part of todays sermon with you.
"I've got better questions than I have answers, better dreams than I have plans. I've got better thoughts than I have actions so I built my house on what I thought was solid ground but now I know it could be sand." - Todd Agnew
You and I are full of questions, dreams and thoughts but where do they lead us? Do we have all the answers? Will we ever have all the answers? What are your dreams today? What are you doing about them? What are you thinking? What actions should you be taking today?
What is our purpose? Why were we put here? Why do we endure the things we do? What does God expect of you? What is the meaning of life? We find this summed up at the end of Christ's life as He prayed for us in John 17:1-26. Ultimately the meaning of life is summed up in verse 3 - "this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent." All the rest is just fluff, filler whatever is necessary to get us to that point of "KNOWING HIM" - not just knowing about Him but actually, intimately "KNOWING HIM" in all His fullness. Knowing how much He loves you. Knowing how much He believes in you. Knowing what He desires for you and your life.
As we learn to Know Him we then must begin Trusting HIM! Trust Him for your physical needs, for your emotional needs, for your spiritual needs. Trust Him. For in knowing Him we learn He has your best interest at heart and you can trust Him for he says to you in Jeremial 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to give you a future and a hope." He wants what is best for you.
What is best though is not always the easiest and that is where it gets hard for you and I. We have to trust Him even in the hard times when life isn't exactly easy or fair. We have to endure what life throws or way knowing that God will use it to change us into the image of His son. James 1:12 says, "Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him."
The meaning of life: Know Him, Trust Him, Endure til the end. He loves you so much!
There's an old chorus that sums it up best:
"Trusting as the moments fly,
Trusting as the days go by,
Trusting Him what'ere befall,
Trusting Jesus, that is all."
Be assured of His love and of mine. Kari
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
New Challenges
Wow! It's only Wednesday but it has already been a long week!!! We just got done with Rugby lessons at the Corps. The kids are having a good time learning a new sport - I am finding it very interesting myself, I have a nephew that is a good player but I have never actually seen a game.
I went to the second plastic surgeon today. These appointments in themselves are traumatic and then they tell you how much it will all cost - $12,450.00 approximately - for the 9 hour surgery, yes, I said nine hours. It kind of scares me to think I'll be under for that long but my regular doctor said that eventually the excess skin could start causing other problems itself so it is best to have it removed.
He did say that I could start walking on the treadmill in 3 or four weeks but would have to wait the whole 60 days to start doing any upper body work. Then about another month before we can aggressively begin working the arms and belly.
Pray for me that I'll figure out how to get the money to do this in the time table that works for me. I'd like to schedule it for late October - I want to run the 5k Tour de Cure before I have the surgery. That will give me eight months before moves come out and by then the transformation should be complete. We'll see what God has in store - He has brought me this far for a purpose and I believe He will bring it all to pass in His own time and way.
I am enjoying some vacation time and I went and enrolled in Biology and Anatomy and Physiology 1 to help me with my personal training certification. Other than worrying about Corps finances and Dr. visits I have actually tried to enjoy myself and not do anything stressful although I have found that its not really things that stress me out but rather I let PEOPLE stress me out. We ALL need to slow down and realize that God has everything under control and its not all about us anyway.
Since this college class that I'm going to starts on the 20th I won't get to go to Bible Conference this year. I really couldn't miss that much time from the gym right now anyway - not till after October - I've got to lose as much as I can before the Surgery.
Blessings to all! Kari
I went to the second plastic surgeon today. These appointments in themselves are traumatic and then they tell you how much it will all cost - $12,450.00 approximately - for the 9 hour surgery, yes, I said nine hours. It kind of scares me to think I'll be under for that long but my regular doctor said that eventually the excess skin could start causing other problems itself so it is best to have it removed.
He did say that I could start walking on the treadmill in 3 or four weeks but would have to wait the whole 60 days to start doing any upper body work. Then about another month before we can aggressively begin working the arms and belly.
Pray for me that I'll figure out how to get the money to do this in the time table that works for me. I'd like to schedule it for late October - I want to run the 5k Tour de Cure before I have the surgery. That will give me eight months before moves come out and by then the transformation should be complete. We'll see what God has in store - He has brought me this far for a purpose and I believe He will bring it all to pass in His own time and way.
I am enjoying some vacation time and I went and enrolled in Biology and Anatomy and Physiology 1 to help me with my personal training certification. Other than worrying about Corps finances and Dr. visits I have actually tried to enjoy myself and not do anything stressful although I have found that its not really things that stress me out but rather I let PEOPLE stress me out. We ALL need to slow down and realize that God has everything under control and its not all about us anyway.
Since this college class that I'm going to starts on the 20th I won't get to go to Bible Conference this year. I really couldn't miss that much time from the gym right now anyway - not till after October - I've got to lose as much as I can before the Surgery.
Blessings to all! Kari
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Breaking News!
Well, as of Friday, July 20, 2007 my weight went to under 200. So to celebrate last night we went to the Gap and I bought a size 12 jeans - yes, I said a size 12! From a 32 to a 12! I still have 35 more pounds to lose but I feel better since these five pounds were so hard to lose. And I know I'll still fluctuate a little around this mark for a few weeks but it was still great to get to this point. We also went to see Hairspray - a very funny movie. John Travolta as a huge fat mother is a hoot! Yes, Friday was a good day.
I did go to a plastic surgeon this week to talk about skin removal - probably one of the most tramatic moments of my life. I went to the gym after the appointment and a friend asked how it went - I almost burst into tears for no appearant reason - he quickly changed the subject. How women can go into those places and pop theair boobs out and say "I don't like these, can you fix them?" I'll never know. Anyway, the cost will be $8600.00 to get the arms and stomach done. And unless it's covered by insurance you have to pay 100% up front. Not sure where I'll get that kind of money.
I'll let everyone know how things progress. I have another plastic surgeon appointment this week so we'll see how this goes.
Love to all! Kari
I did go to a plastic surgeon this week to talk about skin removal - probably one of the most tramatic moments of my life. I went to the gym after the appointment and a friend asked how it went - I almost burst into tears for no appearant reason - he quickly changed the subject. How women can go into those places and pop theair boobs out and say "I don't like these, can you fix them?" I'll never know. Anyway, the cost will be $8600.00 to get the arms and stomach done. And unless it's covered by insurance you have to pay 100% up front. Not sure where I'll get that kind of money.
I'll let everyone know how things progress. I have another plastic surgeon appointment this week so we'll see how this goes.
Love to all! Kari
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Friday the 13th takes on a whole new meaning!!!
Hey everyone! I can't believe all the things going on in my life right now! Wow! God is good!
Friday was a long day! Every employee complained about something but then it was Friday the 13th. I was suposed to be on vacation but had to listen to complaints anyway! UGH!
Also, my trainer decided to be cute and had me do Javorek's Friday the 13th dumbbell complex for my workout. 13 exercises, 13 times each then go through it 3 times - I only had time to make it through twice. Wow was it ever hard! Ryan, had Hank do it during his personal training too. Saturday Hank and I bought woke up with a nice little gift from Ryan - extremely sore muscles!!!!!! We laughed at each other all day Saturday and I must say it still hurts today. It makes you feel like you've done something though! I really do like the harder workouts - I like the challenge. I want to start doing some heavier lifting soon - I think I'm ready but then it's not really up to me.
Good services today. Smooth, pleasant and unrushed.
Love to all! Kari
Friday was a long day! Every employee complained about something but then it was Friday the 13th. I was suposed to be on vacation but had to listen to complaints anyway! UGH!
Also, my trainer decided to be cute and had me do Javorek's Friday the 13th dumbbell complex for my workout. 13 exercises, 13 times each then go through it 3 times - I only had time to make it through twice. Wow was it ever hard! Ryan, had Hank do it during his personal training too. Saturday Hank and I bought woke up with a nice little gift from Ryan - extremely sore muscles!!!!!! We laughed at each other all day Saturday and I must say it still hurts today. It makes you feel like you've done something though! I really do like the harder workouts - I like the challenge. I want to start doing some heavier lifting soon - I think I'm ready but then it's not really up to me.
Good services today. Smooth, pleasant and unrushed.
Love to all! Kari
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Still loving it!
My team had a great workout today! I'm gonna be sore tomorrow but a good sore! I love knowing I've done something and the pain only means gain. I'm checking with some plastic surgeons about skin removal so I want to have good muscles built up for the time that I'll have to stay out of the gym.
I wonder - will they have gyms in heaven? I actually like working out and I'm still fat and I know alot of skinny people that love it too so mybe for us they'll be one.=-D
I decided to go to Family camp after all this weekend. I wasn't but I want to see conservatory graduation so I will.
And to put all rumors out of the way I have not resigned nor do I intend to. I love the Army and am called to serve as an Officer - my calling has not ceased just because I want to have some plastic surgery and deal with some other health issues. As I have said before if you are my friend then pray for me and if you are not then please keep your mouth shut.
I hope your week is going as well as mine has started off. God is good even in the storms of life.
Blessings to all! Love, Kari
I wonder - will they have gyms in heaven? I actually like working out and I'm still fat and I know alot of skinny people that love it too so mybe for us they'll be one.=-D
I decided to go to Family camp after all this weekend. I wasn't but I want to see conservatory graduation so I will.
And to put all rumors out of the way I have not resigned nor do I intend to. I love the Army and am called to serve as an Officer - my calling has not ceased just because I want to have some plastic surgery and deal with some other health issues. As I have said before if you are my friend then pray for me and if you are not then please keep your mouth shut.
I hope your week is going as well as mine has started off. God is good even in the storms of life.
Blessings to all! Love, Kari
Sunday, July 1, 2007
It is done.
Well, I talked to the new Area Commanders on Thursday evening and this morning the DC has shown up for worship and I will speak to them after Church. I really feel I am doing the right thing by telling them the issues I am having. I hope it doesn't come back to bite me later. Lord, work it all out. I have felt better the last couple of days than I have in quite some time so in that I am confident that the Lord is leading me to take these steps. I love the Army and want to be able to give it my best and today I am seeking for that best. Pray for me be ye a friend forget me if ye be a foe. In feast or famine I WILL praise Him.
Love to all! Kari
Love to all! Kari
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
It IS well with my soul
I have made a few decisions - one of which is to actually take some much needed vacation and do nothing except allow the Lord to speak to me. I have been in Rogers for 5 years and have yet to take a full vacation so I might try it this year. I spoke to my Church leaders and they are going to handle midweek services for the month of July and I will work only on Saturday and Sunday. It is a good compromise for me.
My best friend from college, Kim and her husband Phil are coming this weekend - I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!! She has not seen me this size! =-D
I am making a comercial on Wednesday for the new Northwest Arkansas Biggest Loser competition. You know the "If I can do it then you can too" comercial. It will be fun I think.
Had a great workout yesterday - usually I do a few exercises and then my trainer lets me rest a minute. Yesterday it was solid for about 45 minutes, boom, boom, boom, from one thing to another! It was exhausting but I always feel like I've really done something when it's hard like that. I am a bit strange now though - one of those reasons I am getting to know the new me - my likes and dislikes have changed so drastically!
A friend sent me a verse yesterday that really set my heart at ease - Micah 6:8
"He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercifully, and to walk humbly with your God?"
No more, no less. Amen & amen!
Love to all! Kari
My best friend from college, Kim and her husband Phil are coming this weekend - I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!! She has not seen me this size! =-D
I am making a comercial on Wednesday for the new Northwest Arkansas Biggest Loser competition. You know the "If I can do it then you can too" comercial. It will be fun I think.
Had a great workout yesterday - usually I do a few exercises and then my trainer lets me rest a minute. Yesterday it was solid for about 45 minutes, boom, boom, boom, from one thing to another! It was exhausting but I always feel like I've really done something when it's hard like that. I am a bit strange now though - one of those reasons I am getting to know the new me - my likes and dislikes have changed so drastically!
A friend sent me a verse yesterday that really set my heart at ease - Micah 6:8
"He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercifully, and to walk humbly with your God?"
No more, no less. Amen & amen!
Love to all! Kari
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I Will Praise You In This Storm
I was sure by now, God
You would have reached down and wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say amen, that it's still raining
As thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you, and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on if I can't find You
And as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
To all my friends - no worries! I may be in the storm but I know who is the calmer of all storms and so I will praise Him yet! As Job said "Though He slay me yet will I trust in Him!"
Blessings! Kari
You would have reached down and wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say amen, that it's still raining
As thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you, and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry, You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on if I can't find You
And as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
That You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
To all my friends - no worries! I may be in the storm but I know who is the calmer of all storms and so I will praise Him yet! As Job said "Though He slay me yet will I trust in Him!"
Blessings! Kari
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I've lost 110!
By the way the weigh-in went well, down to 204 and lost 4 inches in my hips and 1 in my waist.
It's Only the World!
I am better - thank you to all my friends who have called, emailed etc.
I also am back into my workout routine so that at least is going well, my trainer is back working us hard - made us run out in the heat yesterday said we were gonna do a truck push or pull soon. I am not sure I am ready for that but if he says so I am then thats what I'll do - go figure!
I know my enemy has just been trying to kill my spirit with the cares of this world and emotions. But I will NOT let him rob me of my joy.
Still, pray for me friends. All the requests from my last blog. Blessings to all, Kari
I also am back into my workout routine so that at least is going well, my trainer is back working us hard - made us run out in the heat yesterday said we were gonna do a truck push or pull soon. I am not sure I am ready for that but if he says so I am then thats what I'll do - go figure!
I know my enemy has just been trying to kill my spirit with the cares of this world and emotions. But I will NOT let him rob me of my joy.
Still, pray for me friends. All the requests from my last blog. Blessings to all, Kari
Monday, June 18, 2007
From Bad to Worse
Sometimes this journey doesn't really seem worth it. So much has changed over the past 8 months! I look different, feel different I guess I even act different. I don't know me. I'll be honest, being fat has its advantages - it keeps you guarded and safe and right now I miss that feeling. Blast it all I need an excuse for whats going on in my life and the fat isn't there to blame it on anymore. I guess this is just a learning time for me. Solomon says it best:
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil?
10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.
13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
May He bless His Word to my heart.
I have a few prayer requests: 1-that I would find a new workout buddy be they male or female to workout with. 2-that I will get out of this funk that I am in. 3-that God would help me to recognize and fix all the flaws in my character that I might not offend others. 4-that he will help me with some trust issues I am having. 5-that an aquaintance of mine who is looking for a new job will find one soon so that they can quit worrying. 6-that a family that left my Church will see that they are loved and missed and will return soon. 7-that my weighin tomorrow won't be as bad as I'm expecting.
I've been listening to a song by Mandesa today called "It's Only the World" and it talks about days like today. It has been a comfort to me! It says, "Heaven is a place where every tear on every face will be wiped away." If you have had a rough day or week I highly recommend you look it up on the web and download it - a good couple of dollars spent.
I'm looking to make some changes in my life in the next couple of months that do not involve my looks so hopefully I will get consumed by these things and all the rest of the junk will take care of itself. I know I have offended some of you over the past several months with talking about my weightloss - it was never my intent, please forgive me. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions but I am here to tell you that the road to heaven is paved with good intentions gone awry! This journey that we are all on is just an educational trip and thank God, He grades on a curve - He alone judges our hearts!=-D
To all those that I know, I am praying for you especially those of you who are moving next Sunday (big Salvation Army move time). I love you all! And, to those I don't know email me and lets get aquainted. Kari
Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What does the worker gain from his toil?
10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.
11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.
13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.
15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account.
May He bless His Word to my heart.
I have a few prayer requests: 1-that I would find a new workout buddy be they male or female to workout with. 2-that I will get out of this funk that I am in. 3-that God would help me to recognize and fix all the flaws in my character that I might not offend others. 4-that he will help me with some trust issues I am having. 5-that an aquaintance of mine who is looking for a new job will find one soon so that they can quit worrying. 6-that a family that left my Church will see that they are loved and missed and will return soon. 7-that my weighin tomorrow won't be as bad as I'm expecting.
I've been listening to a song by Mandesa today called "It's Only the World" and it talks about days like today. It has been a comfort to me! It says, "Heaven is a place where every tear on every face will be wiped away." If you have had a rough day or week I highly recommend you look it up on the web and download it - a good couple of dollars spent.
I'm looking to make some changes in my life in the next couple of months that do not involve my looks so hopefully I will get consumed by these things and all the rest of the junk will take care of itself. I know I have offended some of you over the past several months with talking about my weightloss - it was never my intent, please forgive me. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions but I am here to tell you that the road to heaven is paved with good intentions gone awry! This journey that we are all on is just an educational trip and thank God, He grades on a curve - He alone judges our hearts!=-D
To all those that I know, I am praying for you especially those of you who are moving next Sunday (big Salvation Army move time). I love you all! And, to those I don't know email me and lets get aquainted. Kari
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Misunderstood
This has been a really trying week for me. First my Doctor informs me that my goal to lose 42 more pounds in unrealistic and practically unatainable. On top of that I haven't been feeling really great - hate working out alone and all my workout buddies have quit or moved on. Then to make the week do a complete nose-dive I had some friends really misunderstand something I had done and I may have completely alienated them - it really broke my heart, I guess I had not let my guard down like that in a long time so when this came along the hurt really caught me off guard. I spent two days doing nothing much but sleeping - didn't help anything it just kept me from worrying about everything. My trainer is back tomorrow and hopefully things will go well at the gym this week. It is all I can hope for at this point! I do have weigh-in on Tuesday though so I am not too optimistic - I just pray I haven't gained too much!
I guess the real rub this week is I still don't really know the new me. Before if someone misunderstood me or didn't like me I could always say "it's because I'm fat." Now I feel like I have to own everything - they don't like me because well, maybe I'm not really likeable. I know these feelings are not from God my Father so I will just have to work on my emotions and getting into the gym and working out does relieve stress and make one less likely to be depressed. We'll see what the week holds.
Pray for me! I love you all! Kari
I guess the real rub this week is I still don't really know the new me. Before if someone misunderstood me or didn't like me I could always say "it's because I'm fat." Now I feel like I have to own everything - they don't like me because well, maybe I'm not really likeable. I know these feelings are not from God my Father so I will just have to work on my emotions and getting into the gym and working out does relieve stress and make one less likely to be depressed. We'll see what the week holds.
Pray for me! I love you all! Kari
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Blue's News
My trainer has been away for a week and a half. Part of the time I was in Atlanta so it was okay the rest well, lets just say I really miss my workouts! I've been working with another trainer but his just aren't hard enough so I don't feel like I've done as much.
I also went to the Doctor yesterday and he said he doesn't think I can lose 42 more pounds which is my goal. He said that I have at the least 20 pounds of excess skin so losing 42 would be like me losing 60 after the skin is removed and he doessn't think that is reasonable. He said I could always try and prove him wrong though. My trainer says we can try as well. Maybe settle for 30?
Of course I doubt I can afford to do much about the skin issue - plastic surgery is a bit out of my reach financially. God will provide if that is what God wants for me.
Pray for me friends - I've had a rough day! Love & blessings on you all.
I also went to the Doctor yesterday and he said he doesn't think I can lose 42 more pounds which is my goal. He said that I have at the least 20 pounds of excess skin so losing 42 would be like me losing 60 after the skin is removed and he doessn't think that is reasonable. He said I could always try and prove him wrong though. My trainer says we can try as well. Maybe settle for 30?
Of course I doubt I can afford to do much about the skin issue - plastic surgery is a bit out of my reach financially. God will provide if that is what God wants for me.
Pray for me friends - I've had a rough day! Love & blessings on you all.
Sunday, June 3, 2007
It's Me!
Hello everyone! I switched from xanga to a google blog because EVERYONE can access these wether you have an account or not.
My trainer left this morning for two weeks continuing education. I should be fine the first week but the second I will probably start having withdrawels. I NEED my workouts! I'm addicted!!!! At least part of it I will be in Atlanta - the 7th-the 11th so that will be some relief.
A friend from Russellville came to church this morning - he hadn't seen me since well, forever! He said I looked much better.
For those who are new to my blog I have lost over 100 pounds! No quick fixes, no fad diets and no SURGERY! Just changed the way and what I eat and hired an awesome personal trainer. It took me 6 months and 10 days to lose the first hundred but now its been about 6 more weeks and I've only lost about 8 more. Discouraging but I have had a LOT of miracles the past seven months so I shant be greedy. I've gone from a size 32 to a 14/16 and I can shop in normal stores now - no more fat lady stores for me!=-D
My trainer left this morning for two weeks continuing education. I should be fine the first week but the second I will probably start having withdrawels. I NEED my workouts! I'm addicted!!!! At least part of it I will be in Atlanta - the 7th-the 11th so that will be some relief.
A friend from Russellville came to church this morning - he hadn't seen me since well, forever! He said I looked much better.
For those who are new to my blog I have lost over 100 pounds! No quick fixes, no fad diets and no SURGERY! Just changed the way and what I eat and hired an awesome personal trainer. It took me 6 months and 10 days to lose the first hundred but now its been about 6 more weeks and I've only lost about 8 more. Discouraging but I have had a LOT of miracles the past seven months so I shant be greedy. I've gone from a size 32 to a 14/16 and I can shop in normal stores now - no more fat lady stores for me!=-D
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